One would think, as a believer, trusting in the Lord should come easy. Out of all the Sunday school answers, trust God is right on up there with God is Love and Jesus. However I have some trust issues that are slowly being brought to the surface as I prepare for Ecuador. I went to bed last night setting my alarm for 6 am to go for a run. (I know every part of that sentence makes me sound crazy, believe me I thought the same thing this morning. ) As I got out of bed (slowly) I had no doubt that my feet would hit the floor and my legs would be capable to walk outside and run four miles. I also had no doubt that when I got back I would have food to eat for breakfast and coffee ready to be brewed. As simple as it is, I "trusted" God that these things would happen as they do any other day. As I ran I thought and thought about the word trust and have not stopped thinking about it all day. I can't help but wonder if I could just channel my trust in God from the simple things to also the "big" things (example: getting to Ecuador) then my life would be a lot more peaceful and I would finally be able to see my God for the greatness that He is. Unfortunately its not that simple. (for me anyway) The "trust" of the per say simple things in my life like walking to the kitchen, eating breakfast, having a cell phone, buying gas have completely skipped over me trusting in God and turned into my expectations of God. And the moment I realized that this morning is the very same moment I became convicted. Who am I to expect anything from God? Who am I to think I deserve the simple things let alone the "big" things? As a sinner, I deserve death. Period. (Romans 6:23) So with that I have come to the conclusion that trust in God is a lot more complex than a simple Sunday school answer. So as I sit and write I wonder, now what? Where do I go from here? I go to the Word of God and pray that verses like Psalm 13:5-6, Romans 15:13, Psalm 112:7 and Isaiah 26:3 will be engraved on my heart as the journey to Ecuador continues. I pray that these verses will be my prayer in the moments when I belittle my God by not trusting Him. I pray to trust Him; in every aspect of this journey both big and small.
"I pray that God, the source of hope will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust Him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit."
--Romans 15:13
"You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in You, those whose thoughts are fixed on You. "
--Isaiah 26:3.
Saved by Grace,
Kb
